There's no such special things today it's just about my birthday! isn't that special for is not! because everytime i celebrated my birthday i don't have money to treat my self I don't know why? even last year i don't have that enough money that's why i stay all day at the house! sweeping, washing and everything that makes me tired! for real i didn't really celebrate my birthday it's just this day will past by really past! i recieve a message greeting from my friends and that's it! isn't SAD....! waw! this is life can offer to me. no nothing else, but my breathing thanks God for that! but somehow i'm jealous to other people who celebrate their birthday with some party or what do you call it! outing stuff... eating dinner with a bunch of food! that's what i want to encounter i mean that feelling of having those stuff! but life can offer to me again is this life what i'm living for but i feel it "suck!" but anyway 20 (twenteen) hehehe! i'm getting old! i know but life must go on! so here I am still alive and kicking! nate